I think it's jealousy...

What are you supposed to do when your bestfriend finds a boyfriend? One she wants to always be with? One that always wants to be with her. Not that it's a bad thing, and i'm super happy for her, but I get a little jealous. When I see how cute they are together, I think, why can't I find that too. I want that too. I wanna be held in someone's arms, walk around downtown with, hand in hand. Someone who its nice just to spend time with. I wanna be kissed out of the blue, and most of all I just want someone who I can be myself around, someone who likes me for me. And I want a real relationship, one where we don't we don't always have to be with each other to know it still means something. I want a guy that can be friends with my friends and will hangout with us, but also knows when i need my girl time, and he's ok with that. I want to find this guy, but i'm starting to think he doesn't exist. Someday hopefully, soon I hope, I'll find someone like this.